Lost My Best Friend..

Lost my best friend, she is around me, but I lost her. I am the one who let her go with her own thought, and her way of life. Or may be everything is because my own thought and way of life? Not sure.



Last night, I had thought about the whole things that happened between us for all these years, found out that actually, I am lonely!! yes, I want to find a friend that I can share my happiness, and sadness.. but I don't want them to envy me.. or I do want them to envy me?? yeah, my attitude, and way of talking.. always created a snobbish atmosphere.



Lonely, I am.. I am not complain for real.. just to express my dilemma, even though my situation and my dilemma is not a big problem compare to those who struggle for foods. But I always have a reason to complain... I don't know whether I just want to talk about my problems, to ignore, that actually, my problems is very tiny so, that not necessarily to talk about..?? or, I just want to find someone to talk to?



After a long thought, I realized.. this world is a lonely place. No matter you are married, or surrounded with friends, and fun.. back to reality, we are all individually alone with our own world.. with a lot of desires to do this and that, desires to own this and that, desires to beat or to conquer our own achievments, or others, compares ourself to anothers.. in material life, in knowledge life.. in everything. The point is all of those things, is just to show it to other people, just to let others know your capabilities. Then what? still alone..



Life is very simple, I think.. we live our life is for ourself, and we should live our life with a responsibility, and live our life with care. But, too bad, most of the time, we just think of how to live our life in a better and more convenient way.. that's the root of the chaos today.. that's the root of the problems today. But who cares? ah.. just some stupid paranoid thinker will think about it, and feel hopeless, then comitted suicide.. ^.^



From now on, I will try my best to live my life happily, no complains, do my best to everything, lowered my desires toward materials.. help more people, and listen to more sorrows..

We Were Walking In the Rain...

March 12, 2010 - A gloomy and cloudy Saturday. My Hubby and I went to his parents, my in law's home for Lunch. It is part of our typical weekends' activities.

Hubby has an adventurous character, that often takes me to a ride to wherever the road has led us. This afternoon after we left our parents house, he drove and drove and drove.. we went to Tao Yuan County, to the Northern Taiwan's biggest Dam: Zhe Men Dam.

The weather was bad, but the rain wasn't that heavy earlier, we were enjoy that drizzling rain, and the wind, hugging each other, under our big umbrella. But not until we went up to its watchtower, a very stunning place which enable us to see half of the Dam scenery.

All of sudden, it was raining cats and dogs.. also accompanied by the heavy wind.. Geezz.. it was wet out our cloths and shoes.. we were waiting until the rain was calm down a bit, and we walked down from the watchtower.

Rushing into our warmth car, I thought hubby will turn on the engine and went home at that moment, But, out of my expectation, slowly, he took off his shoes, because it was wet, and acceptable.. but next, he also took off his pants!! that turns me.. he is so sexy without his pants.. and he said.. the pants are wet.. and he wanted to drive home in "half naked".... Ha ha... That's really something..

I was hope that we were ended our "Walking in the Rain" trip with a very nice love making..

Thank you for the trip.. I love you..